A Note...

Just dropping a quick note to let everyone know that i haven't died... just been swamped with work, court, extra shifts, and grad school. My vacation to NYC can't come soon enough... still trying to decide whether or not i will be on the return flight...

The Longest Transmission...

The longest walk...
The longest prayer...
The longest memory...
The longest stare...

The longest line.......


Attention all Officers... Attention all Officers... we have an Emergency Button Activation for Officer Jared Shoemaker... All Officers respond...

Officer Jared Shoemaker 10-90?

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Officer Jared Shoemaker 10-90?

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Officer Jared Shoemaker 10-90?

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(Chief D. Been) "Attention all Officers. Officer Jared Shoemaker is 10-7."

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United States Marine Corporal and Tulsa Police Officer Jared Shoemaker
April 22, 1977 - September 4, 2006
Killed in the Line of Duty
You will always be a Hero

10-91

Sometimes it takes a death right in front of you to recognize not only the frailty of life, but also the reality that you only have one shot at it... having said that...

Relationships. Sigh. I spent last Sunday night walking along a private beach in Galvaston while the sun was setting. I should have stayed there. Back at work and on my way to a domestic. Baby's daddy keeps showing up and harrassing her and her new boyfriend. Ex-con, gang member, on file for nearly everything you can be on file for... sigh. Leave that domestic to go to another one down the street. Call comes in, white male beating white female in parking lot. Catch the girl speeding away. Spend some time talking with her. 19. Doens't want to leave him because she is in love with him, and she will never feel that way again... sigh. Spend the next 10 minutes trying to instill some sense of self-worth in this confused little girl.

We are not cats... we do not have 9 lives, we have 1. Life needs to be lived with that in mind. It breaks my heart when people do not even have enough self-respect to leave an abusive situation, or enough sense to stop entering into such relationships. Sometimes i feel like i am more of an emergency relationship counselor than a cop. "You have ONE life people! Stop mucking it up!"

i need to go back to my happy place... walking waist deep in the water... feeling the waves crash over me... watching the sunset... sigh...